but that does not mean i don't change, i don't develop, i don't adapt. i do. but i dont force myself to be someone else. i don't hate myself for not being it. i don't feel inadequete because of it. everyone has their own talents. i have mine.
i went to mumbai last monday. it was fun. and it was an enlightening experience. i guess i learnt a lot. about myself. oh and of others too. for some reason. i dont know. i suddenly felt like a barrier had broken within me. like that wall i'd built to keep my own feelings away from me, was slowly coming apart. breaking away. it was like i'd suddenly decided to stop being so controlling of my own feelings. to give my own brain the freedom of thought. the freedom to think evil of others. haha. the freedom to get irritated. :P it's a nice feeling. i may be changing. but i guess change is the unchangeable law of nature, as Radha Ma'am puts it.
we all evolve day by day. it is just about taking it a moment at a time, and living life truly and fully.
