Today was just another normal day. I will try to keep this post as short as possible.

Yesterday, just before i was about to sleep, i recieved an sms from danielle saying that Dr Hang wanted to meet the SYf-ers at 7.15 to congratulate us and announce our results to the school. This meant that I had to wake up earlier than usual, and leave earlier than usual too. Lucky that it was a wednesday and my dad was dropping me. since my sis needed to be in school early, and i needed to also, we left early.

I reached school like freaking early, like at 7.05. if that is not early, i do not know what is. Then, saw Li Qing, waited in the concourse for a while with Andy and Aris. then, Cheryl came. At around 7.13, we went to wait outside the General Office for the other dancers. Then, Ms Dong and Dr Hang came out of the GO and Dr Hang said that he recieved a mail from the management of SYF organizers, confirming that we got GOLD. So he congratulated us, said that we have proved that we may be a math and science school but are all-rounders blah blah blah. Then, he talked about a treat, a celebration for all our hardwork that we put in to get the award. At this i was like really happy! XD XD. Now when they say treat, i am expecting a trip to Malaysia or something along that line. Nothing less will be accepted, yes thank you. I am keeping my fingers crossed for something like that. Oooh, it would be so fun! When, i was in Primary School, i used to be in Indian Dance. That was one very cool experience i had. We also got a GOLD award for SYF that time and we got many other Challenge trophies and etc for our dance. As a reward, they sent all 17 of us girls to Cameron Highlands on a full expense paid trip with 3 accompanying teachers. Of course i had to pay around $150 for the visa and all the other immigration related stuff. But only $150 for a whole 3-day trip to cameron highlands and a stopover at KL is a great deal!!!! That too, alone only with your friends!!

So, i am really hoping for another trip or something like that. It would be soooooooooo much funn!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, this friday they were planning to go somewhere for a celebration party(yes, anotheer celebration. this is by ourselves, not by the school.) I think Chua had a very good idea, going to a foot spa is a great idea! let all the poor people with bruises on their legs relieve themselves! Ha ha Lol!

Oh, back to the story. Dr Hang said that he was going to announce the results to the school. So he told us to wait in the concourse while he announced. I saw Carly while we were waiting. It was funny waiting "backstage" well, no, "back grandstand" and listening to the assembly going as normal. Usually we would have been there amongst our classmates under the sun and all. But now we were waiting for Dr Hang to call us onto the grandstand. It was a queer feeling, like a bit of unexplained nervousness, for don't-know-what reason and a bit of pride tha we were going to stand in front of the whole school. It was like we were letting the school see our faces and let them know that we were the people who slogged soooo hard so that we could get that GOLD. Finally, i was some sort of official recognition for our efforts. I was very, very happy. So, anyway we were waiting as Dr Hang was giving the announcement. I noticed something while listening to Dr Hang's announcement. It was that Dr Hang tries to stretch his announcement, trying to put the main part, AKA the good news after a bit of suspense. he tells all the unimportant details first, then gives the main ones. It is like he is trying to build a suspense. Well, i have actually realised that it works!. We do not notice it, but we do get sorta hooked to the announcement to listen what they are saying etc.

Anyway after that we went onto stage, stood in a line, put on these huge smiles, took a bow then left. In short, the experience was (in aisyah's words) just extra-ing along beside Dr Hang while he talked and then come back. Anyway, now i see that more people i meet are congratulating me. I feel very happy when people do that (ah, pride, pride!) I took my english recount test today. I feel that i actually wrote much better than usual. Though i think that i did not really address the topic. I am not writing what the topic was incase somebody who has not taken the test reads my blog. (But which sad person apart from the people i know, would want to condemn themselves to reading such a blog like mine?)

Today was AXIS (it is supposed to be Da Vinci, but i am just too used to AXIS) We did our skit. Improvised on a few parts. I liked the last part, when i am supposed to sing out the quote in an oprah-styleand then Kelvin says "just shut up, dammit!" While coming back home, i bought Mango Madness. *Grins Guiltily* I know i should not be drinking it, since i still have a cold and cough, but i just can't resist the temptation. And i did not drink Mango Madness last week also!(i had SYF remember?)

Anyway, now is time for a confession. To tell you the truth, ever since Speech Day and SYF and my days of sickness, i just feel kind of a different person than i am usually. I just feel a bit different. I feel kindof detached from my classmates, don't really participate in their conversations and jokes. AARGHHH ! WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME!!! I am also beginning to feel very guilty for a lot of the stuff. I had passed through this phase in my last days of stay in India and am passing through this phase again. Do you ever have this feeling when at the slightest bad thing that happens to anyone else apart from you, you begin feeling guilty and begin to find your fault in it somehow? Do you ever have this point in time when you feel that you should do everything you can in order to make everyone happy? Do you increase your expectations of yourself and feel that you do not deserve all the good things in your life so you must be a better person and work harder so that you will deserve it? Well, i am passing through this phase right now. In fact, the only time i am feeling close to normal is when i m with my SYF friends! I am really missing all those tiring SYF practices! The only good thing about mine passing through this phase is that i am feeling gulty enough to finish my homework on time and try not to waste time. I guess this is evidence that i am finally snapping out of it and turning back into the norml Pari again. Coz i am certainly not studying and am wasting time writing this uber-long post.

I really, really, really miss all the SYF practices and my SYF practice spammed schedule! It used to give me something to focus on, something to concentrate on, something to do! now even though i still have loads of homework projects and tests, i suddenly feel very not busy. especially with no 3 hour SYF practices thrice a week. And i am missing seeing my SYF friends like nearly everyday! now i only see them when i pass by them in school. I am remebering all the crazy time we spent together, our crazy Hi-Five! ritual, our crazy "wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadburry/ curvy-vurvy!!", our crazy gay partners, Curvy-vurvy'ism, cookie, cupcake and cookie monster! I am really missing all those times. Some people may wonder why i am soo obsessed with this SYF and my SYF friends and practices and the dance and so on. Well, it is because, we have spent so much of our time this year, on the SYF, spent so many practice sessions together, spent so many practice sessions slogging ourselves off. Through all this, SYF has become an undispensable part of our lives and we have forged very strong bonds with each other that are even stronger than the triple bond between nitrogen atoms in diatomic molecules. (i know my chem very pro)SIGH, talking about SYF is really making me miss everything.

Ok, i think this post is getting really long and i should stop typing anymore. I am going to go to the playground now, after nearly half a year! whippeee! anyway, i got my Hindi exam marks today..... i got 81%, an 'A'!!!! At least i am sure of at least one subject in which i get an 'A'. Hini has no CA, exam is 100%. So that is about it. BYE!