Hey! Guess what? Friday, well, i did not go to school, and I got this message from a fellow SYF-er. this is what it said.

"Heyy, for SYF we got COP ><"

So i saw this message and was like, no reaction at first. Just accepted it. SYF, COP, No award recieved COP, Certificate Of Participation, also known as toilet paper by your primary schoolmates. this is what you got for SYF. SO yah, basically that i just forgot about it for a whilwe and continued doing my work. Then my sister went for tution, and my dad had gone to office.

Then, my mum woke up. Then, i told her. "Hey, mum, we got COP for SYF." Then, i don't know when, but i just broke down. I was sad not because we got COP, but because, all the efforts that we had put in had gone down the drain. All the pain that we had gone through all the bruises that we got, they were all useless. We had had practice like just so often. Firstly, with the year 2 being so stressful and busy, i usually came home very late and had only a some days when i was not in school. Then, out of those few days, 3 days a week we had SYF dance practice, the kind of practice that just drains off all your energy, then you come home super exhausted with muscle pains and all that, but you still have to finish off all your school work. You have to hand in your homework, your practicals, the tons of projects, study for the quizes and tests. The remaining free time is taken by project meetings.

Basically, I am sure that most of the SYF-ers would have faced the same problem as me. All this effort we put in effected us academically. But, I am proud of the fact that despite having so many stuff to do and nearly turning crazy, I actually pulled through this ordeal. Having so many things to do and having so little time has actually helped me to become more effeient in doing my work and managing my time better. But, i still regret that despite us sacrificing so much of our time, sweat and efforts, we did not even get a bronze.

Actually, to tell you the truth, we were aiming for a silver. this was the school's expectation of us because our seniors got a silver last time so that was what was expected. I obviously wanted to get a gold(who doesn't?) but i knew it was not really possible because we were not all that good.

But, there is still one thing whch bothers me a lot. Because, even though i agree that we did not perform a well as the other schools, i don't think we did so badly that we deserved only COP.

(Yes, i know this post is a bit crappy, but bear with it. I am not sure what to say actually. and yes i am very sad because we have worked hard for it, but have not really achieved anything.)